Having cancer is a sure cure for procrastination. Yes indeed it most certainly has cured me, which is not such a bad thing really. I've put off for years answering those deep questions about God and faith. Because of course there was always time - so much time. Daily, almost hourly I ponder and pray, I never ask why me because it does not matter, it is me. I ask for enlightenment and courage. I have most assuredly had miracles, simple experiences which alone seem meaningless but threaded together defy coincidence. I am content in that answer. I am humbled and grateful for the love and compassion shown to me by my husband, children, family and my family of friends. I have never experienced such an outpouring of love towards me and for that I am profoundly grateful.
Tomorrow I meet with my new best freinds Dr. Chemo and Dr. Radiation, I've been advised to check my modesty at the door. Please say a little prayer.
Father why have I seperated my self from you, please forgive me.
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